If you’re reading this, this means I finally stopped thinking so much about writing and actually started! (And this was my only sentence for about a good ten minutes lol) Okay, so let’s start with that concept. Less thinking, more doing. I am in no way telling you to be impulsive and irrational. As a thinker, over-thinker and a re-thinker, I’m telling you to stop planning in your head and start executing. Right here. Right now. Easier said than done, right? Well, if I’m doing it, there’s no doubt in my mind that you can’t do the same.
I must admit that the idea to blog dropped out of the sky and smacked me in the face. Do I know what I’m doing? No, no I don’t. However, I convinced myself this morning to stop obsessing over the technical intricacies of blogging that I have no idea about and simply start writing. There’s nothing wrong with learning as you go. No one, absolutely no one, came into this world proficient in everything. You learn through what? Experience. And the only way to gain experience is to take action. After years of being my typical hard-headed, stubborn self, it’s finally been hammered into my head that I do, in fact, have a gift and a passion for writing. Gifts were meant to be shared, point blank.
But to make this endeavor all that it can truly be, I have to be honest with myself as well as build a good rapport with my audience. So I have to tell you that the main reason I decided to start blogging was after I finished watching “13 Reasons Why” on Netflix and cried my eyes out two days before my 25th birthday. Without revealing any pertinent information about the show, I will say that I was very upset. So upset that I cried on and off for hours, but still finished the last three episodes and cried some more. And then I became even more upset because I remembered all the people who told me how good this show was, as if it was just purely entertaining and not based on unsettling and triggering realities that an unprecedented number of people struggle(d) with on a daily and/or deadly basis. This show invoked a lot of mixed emotions for me, but it ultimately made me want to share my stories and insight in hopes of helping someone else.
I know I’m not the first nor the last to go through something and I am also not arrogant enough to believe that my struggles are unique and no one can relate. The truth is, as different and as special as we’d like to believe that we are, we all have commonalities that make us interconnected. If you can’t take anything else away from this experience, I need you to internalize and truly believe that you have nothing to be ashamed of. It’s the shit no one wants to talk about that makes us beautiful. There is beauty in the struggle and healing in transparency!
*Photo Cred: Devin Cain